Log in

Or connect using:

the lessons and mistakes of a subversive

Rating position

Name:
niki
Birthdate:
5 March 1980
External Services:
  • niki_and_ink@livejournal.com
  • NikiDeaf AIM status
This journal was began when I was in college and it documents the experimental phase of my life, as well as the wonderful, thrilling and frequently agonizing college boyfriend that I had. It also depicts my struggle with bipolar, the highs and lows and the process of coming to terms with this condition. At this point in time in my life I mostly blogged on xanga, since I wanted to start fresh after meeting my husband and moving to Silver Spring, Maryland. If any of the people reading this blog wish to check that one out, my username there is lovewithstars (thanks to Ms. Julai for the inspiration.) I felt in some ways like a completely new person, and yet this old one remains, hidden there underneath (sometimes deeply hidden and sometimes quite close to the surface.)

I now have 3 of the desired 4 children. I have gray hair, not just one or two, but quite a lot. I have to dye it. I have wrinkles now, crow's feet starting at my eyes and laugh lines around my mouth. I gained quite a lot of weight with my last baby (up to 180 lbs) and I am slowly taking it off (finally down to 130 now.) I am resigned to the fact that I will never again be a size 0.

This is a blog where I am honest with myself. I might not be honest with everybody else but I need a place to just be honest with myself and let it out. This is that place. Thank you for listening, you imaginary audience. Thank you.

Rating position

Statistics

Welcome to the new LiveJournal

Some changes have been made to LiveJournal, and we hope you enjoy them! As we continue to improve the site on a daily basis to make your experience here better and faster, we would greatly appreciate your feedback about these changes. Please let us know what we can do for you!

Send feedback

Switch back to old version

LiveJournal Feedback

See a bug? Let us know! Here you can also share your thoughts and ideas about updates to LiveJournal

Your request has been filed. You can track the progress of your request at:
If you have any other questions or comments, you can add them to that request at any time.

Send another report Close feedback form

If you're a LiveJournal user, you will be logged in after submitting your request.

(optional, if you're a LiveJournal user only)

(optional, if you're a LiveJournal user only)

(not shown to the public)

If you have a billing inquiry, please go here to submit your question.

Provide a link to the page where you are experiencing the error

Do not include any sensitive information, such as your password or phone number. No HTML allowed.

If you can't pass the human test, email your inquiry to: support@livejournal.com